64 The Woman In Me…

Sunday, October 3, 2010

I feel am truly blessed – for too many reasons. I woke up today, stretched my body to wave off lethargy. Twisting my neck, I slowly opened my eyes, sliding window curtains open and feeling the warmth of sunrays on me. I realized that I woke up late today than I usually do- No, I didn’t really turn for the wall clock and neither did I pull out my mobile. But I knew that at the regular timings I wake up, sunrays are too tender to hurt and don’t generally intrude onto my bed!   A perfect Sunday morning, I thought.  I love the view of the outside world from my window. Sitting and relaxing right on my bed, I sometimes watch the world pass by!
Across the road under the huge tree, there’s this old couple who struggles day in and day out for livelihood selling idlies and dosas. People already gathered there to break the day’s fast. Dragging my legs close to me, I rested my head on my knees; looking out from the window. As I watch the world which has started its day long before, my thoughts lingered about the heated argument that I had with one of my good pals yesterday.
We had been sharing a close and genuine friendship for a while now, and it seemed to me that an hour of ‘words-exchange’ thing that crept up apparently for no logical reasons carried enough energy to tear the tender relation apart. “Hmmmmm…:-<” I sighed deeply… recalling the harsh statement he made on me, which could never possibly get out of my heart… It seemed a different story to me that he called me back apologizing for what he spitted out in anger and that he did not mean it.  I tried my best to forget and forgive, for it was not completely his mistake. But then; evil called hatred had already been injected into my heart! I started to realize how powerful hate is. I never wanted to overlook the good times we shared emphasizing on the sentence which he vented out in no control of his. I was lost in my own world of thoughts and recalling; when I was startled by the door bell. I hate the sound of my door bell which is less calling and more alarming. :|
       Ufff 8-| I know it’s my maid… She’s my wake-up call on week days! As she entered into the house, I observed that she’s unusually dull today. “Is everything okeh?” I asked… she turned around, smiled and said “Yes”. This was more disturbing as she goes blah blah and has all the problems of the world to share with; especially when asked if everything is ok. I turned back, went into my room and settled @ my favorite place - On my bed beside the window, watching the world out. But this time, I wasn’t thinking about my lost friend. I was thinking about lost me! Not many days ago, one of my very good and childhood friends asked me what I wanted to be in life. And it’s time that I put the same question to myself. Sunrise to sunset, what am I struggling for? What am I expecting out of me? 
Well, I always aimed for future. To be a responsible daughter, caring sister, honest citizen, loving wife, best mother, an example daughter-in-law and after all these, if time permits, a successful professional- is what I always wanted to be. But… Am I?  
My momma says am indeed a responsible daughter and that she feels am an invaluable possession! My bro says am a caring siso that every bro would long for! And my conscious says I’ve always been an honest citizen so far. And for the rest, time has to tell me – Q sera sera, whatever will be-will be; futures’ not ours to see! Following and chasing my thoughts, I knew what my next task in life is! Will I be a loving wife? Well, to be responsible, caring, honest and faithful to a person isn’t a big deal for me. But to love him and to love him with all that I have? Loving a person who isn’t from your family isn’t as easy as said, I thought! Or maybe it is, if he meets my expectations. “HOLD ON…” I thought, “My Expectations :-o?!?”… Now, what the hell am I expecting out of a guy whom I know as good as an alien? What does ‘the woman in me want?
Loving, understanding, friendly, cooperative, smart and with good sense of humor, is what every girl dreams for in her man and am no exceptional with these. But the woman in me needs something else from the man in “him”! 
Since my childhood, I’ve been taking compliments that am too matured for my age and I grew up having friends who are double and few are perhaps triple my age. I rarely am on par with friends of my age… well,:-? does that mean I may have chances to fall for someone who already crossed the age bracket of mine? May be! I always wanted someone, whose very thought makes me smile! He should be clever, quick witted, have great sense of humor and above all, he should read me… He should find me transparent enough to be read and heard even if am miles away! Lol… these are all book binded stories, I know, but this is what the woman in me needs from the man in “him”!! Before I could continue any further or chase my thoughts, the monster in my belly popped up screaming its time for my breakfast! Oh yeah, am hungry, I thought looking at the idli point… There’s lot more that the woman in me longs for… and yes, it’s not a perfect pink world that every girl dreams for… It’s something different which I would speak about in my future posts as am rushing off now to break my day’s fast… 
Sayonara :-h

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64 comments:

_--sameer--_ said...

Hmm Anvitha , as said in ur post u r very well matured than ur age. About The woman in u , u will get a good guy who will make u smile ,who will be clever like u ,who will be having a gr8 sense of humor and who reads you very well ;)) . About ur fight with ur good pal ,well this all happens in friendship.Some times we cant digest few words but forgive and forget is the best policy to use in these times ;)). As u have a golden heart u will do it and u know what to do ....... We all Love "the Women in You". Anvitha......

Anvitha said...

Thank you so much Sameer :) But few things go straight into heart than mind...:( few things hurt so deep that it breaks the relation in a glance and we all know that a broken relationship is like a broken glass... can never be the same again, no matter how hard we try!! Anyways, I'll try my best to forget and befriend him again :)

__--sameer--__ said...

Listen , mistakes r made by human . U said he is a best pal of you. So cant u give me atleast a chance or two ? Yes i do agree what u say that few words go straight in to heart than mind ;)) this is the time when we have to stand out of this situation. Many people do what u did but dont break ur friendship or any relationship just for an argument of one or two hours my dear :D . U will (may) miss the future many hours ( time) with him . Think twice before making a decision. U r matured enough so i guess what i said will go in to ur heart too ;)) TC.

Anvitha said...

Yes Sameer :) You are right :) Thank you ;))

Dinesh said...

Finally, what did the woman in you want? Lets us know so that we can apply :P

_--sameer--__ said...

1.We should always try to keep our partner happy. 2. We should support our partner at all the times(good/bad times). 3.We should never let our partner to feel he/she is lonely. 4.We should never let a tear drop from his/her eye's ;))
5.Most important thing is we should love our partner sooooooooooooo much than anyone in this world. Hmmmm still many more requirements to become a good partner of our betterhalf but will stop here as they covered what i was trying to express ;))

Anonymous said...

Good one. I like the thought process.

Bradely said...

Amazed to see such a cute blog design. Well drafted posts. You are a natural writer Anvitha, hats off! I would like to know how did you get the different background for the post. Thats looks cute and seems u found out the blogger's trick. My blog is http://yimleej.blogspot.com . I am grateful if u can help me out :) Cheers.

Anvitha said...

lol @ Dinesh. comment # 5... you'll know soon :P

Anvitha said...

Hi Bradely! Just saw ur blog and a good one :) How are ur kids doing? well, theres a html code that we can apply to our posts to get a different background. You can google it, not a big deal :) just a little code and not a rocket science...

Anvitha said...

A good one sameer... @ comment#6

Claudia said...

Good post Anvitha, I enjoyed reading it. Even my bed is beside my window too :). Nice background for the post.

_--sameer--_ said...

Thanks Anvitha. Comment 6 was for people like Dinesh and who ever want to know what we can do for our partners ;))

Anonymous said...

Hehehehehahaha =))
Rajesh

Anvitha said...

:-? What made u rofl Rajesh?? Are you okeh? :-ss

Anonymous said...

nice post and sexy blog

Regresa A Mí said...

my heart is being squeezed with each $ every tear dropping from ur eyes..each time u feel sad, i feel pain in my heart..u may find all the world to express ur upset,but i have only u in the whole world to express my lov/confession( though im unable to put it in proper words)..i m not saying there wont me any mistakes in future but i have lots of love and littlebit foolishness to make u forget and smile again...sorry again..

Anvitha said...

@ Regresa A Mi.... Its hurting me more to know its hurting you. I never wanted you to be hurt!! Thats what I never meant. We argued several times before, but did you realize why this one has broken our friendship?

Akwasibah Ademola said...

I say in Bemba, Athehna kermoohi injum naturiya dwarkilopomey. Kintos jinjuka perpempatha. Loving nature irtos meeki anaahi isheviya ipris askostava illunim. Anvitha, I say again, you are a true beautiful mind. And I fall in love with u again and again. This time for your aims in life. u a true girl who gave family and relations first importnce and then your profesion. I LOVE ANVITHA.

Chandana said...

Whats going on here?

Pink World said...

Hi Anvitha. Nice post. Your aims in life are oh so inspiring.

Anvitha said...

@ Comment# 19... Ademola >:D< How have you been? Thank you so much

Anvitha said...

Nothing much @ Chandana :P ,,, @ Pink world... Thank you :)

Anvitha Knows Who Am I said...

Madam Anvitha garu,enthasepuuu... raayatam, chadavatam, books, systemena? leka life lo inkemanna entertainment vundaa?? Ayina ninnu hurt chesina abbai evaru :> Nenaithee kaadukadaa :-ss. Anyways, let me tell you that it was actually a nice post which I enjoyed reading. Like others, I'll not create a hype saying its a great post, but just a normal one which a normal person would enjoy reading. :P keep going anvitha, you always rock :)

Anvitha said...

@ comment # 24. Who are you? :-/ and at the entertainment part, theres nothing more, as these are my entertainment and this is what I enjoy.:)

Anvitha Knows Who Am I said...

I thought you will know me =((

Anvitha said...

Oopps... sorry to break your heart buddy! But am dumb :( I just cant catch and pinpoint at people :(

Anvitha Knows Who Am I said...

I will give you a clue then :-w is that ok?? :-w

Parimal Kumar said...

Nice post and nice blog. Hi , how are you anvitha?

Anvitha said...

Lets try :-s @ Mr... grrrr... what shall I call you? @ comm# 28

Anvitha said...

Hi Parimal, Thank you , :) am fine. How about you?

Anvitha Knows Who Am I said...

Ok :-w You know me since 4 years :|

Anvitha said...

Lol... :-? Are you my cousin's husband who got married 4 years ago? And you tortured her and went to prison on domestic harassment case? You are the one right? Mr. IDIOT?? :|

Anvitha Knows Who Am I said...

:o Nenu antha violent kaadu thalli [-o<. Ok another clue. I proposed you an year ago.

Anvitha said...

Hmmm.. :-? So are you the kid who proposed me and I gave you a chocolate saying first finish off schooling? :P

Anvitha Knows Who Am I said...

:-o OMG :-l Wrong again. You didnot say that... you said "You are the first guy on earth to propose me, no guy is so silly so far. I am a hard girl to live with and would you mind me thinking about your good future and denying you?"... Lol... after few months, I happened to talk to someother guy who also liked you. But I was shocked to know you said the same thing to him >:P

Anvitha said...

=)) rofl =)) So you have the answer in it! When you know that I say the same thing to every Sam and Nick whats the point in giving me this clue?? Oh comeon now 8-| tell me who you are :|

Anvitha Knows Who Am I said...

Ok last clue :| If you cannot get me now, I will reveal :(. You often tell me.... "Bakka vedhava, nenu gattiga voodanante sapta samudralu daati padthaav!..."

Abbie said...

Hi Anvitha, good post. How are you? Nice blog design

Anvitha said...

:-O :-o Vijju?!? :-/ :-o

Anvitha said...

Hi Abbie, am fine.. Thank you :)

Anvitha Knows Who Am I said...

Yes :D Finally >:D< you got me!

Anvitha said...

:-o Vijju nuvvu brathikee vunnavaa :-o chachipoyaav ankunna :(

Anvitha Knows Who Am I said...

:-o idemi vintha reaction =(( anandam tho gentulu vesthaav ankunte .. chachipoledaa ani adguthunnavaa :((

Anvitha Knows Who Am I said...

I've sent you a mail of my contact details... call me right now :-w

Anvitha said...

Ok, let me check my mail

Katie said...

Good post and am Just curious. How did you get the different background for this post?

Anvitha said...

Thank you Katie. Thats just a small HTML code we need to embed in our post!

Satish Chowdary said...

Awesome post. well done. I liked the theme look and sober black wood background :)

Anonymous said...

Nice post =d>

charan said...

Nice aims. That shows how pure minded you are. hats off!

Admirer said...

haaii anviii...if i were in ur position i would have killed that fellow(ur pal).. how dare he hurt u X( x(...anvi u r a fire brand, go kill that fellow, my blessing will be with u :P

Anvitha said...

Hello Admirer... I agree that am a firebrand; that doesn't mean I love violence!! Killing that is fellow is too long; what all I did is... just smiled ":)" on his face. Yes, I did turn back to him; but perhaps the relation can never be the same again!!

Ronit said...

Good post and awesome aims! All the best Anvitha

Arjun said...

An year ago in my chamber, we had a discussion about you. When your topic popped up out of nowhere, I thought "why do even these guys speak about Anvi? She is not an eye-catching beauty and not a celebrity..." time passed by and we got closer. I started reading your mind and I know your every smile speaks and your every movement has a smart meaning. Now, all I can say is... "From the coast of Ipanema.. To the Island of Capri; all the way to Kaulalumpur or even further to Hyder-ah-bhad I'll follow you whereever you may be...."

Anvitha said...

Arjunnn :-o OMG :-o Grrrr... I never knew you thought about me on a positive note atleast for a sec!! The Arjun I know, is the one who always says "NO" or "NEVER" to whatever I speak, act or think! Good to know you have a mask that I couldn't scan through for so many years :) By the way, that was a good track by Enrique.. what made u add Hyder-ah-bhad and kill the quality of the song :|.

Anvitha said...

@ comment # 51 & 54 ... Hey Charan and Ronit... Thanks :)

neelakanta said...

You are just being what a girl in 20's would generally be. But what makes you different is the way you express and the way you think and see life. I can foresee you as a successful person. God Bless you and may all your aims come true.

Anvitha said...

Thank You So very much Neelakanta Garu :)... Elders' Blessings always encourage me and make me feel confident and secured about my future :)

Parthasarathy said...

Yes, you are truly blessed child. Simple yet deep article.

Anvitha said...

Thank You, Parthasarathy Garu :)

Prabhu said...

HI. Can I know how did you get the clock? That looks good

Exthensis said...

Hello Anvitha. Nice blog

Triveni said...

I liked the view... "The woman in me needs something else from the man in him" Good one!!

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